Rejuvenation

Get a good night's sleep - Rejuvenate your body, mind, and spirit.

I waited a couple of days to think on this topic - figuring I would sleep well soon and could reflect on how wonderful it felt and how rejuvenated it made me feel! Only I have yet to have a good nights sleep. My nights are filled with active, stressful dreams... life-threatening situations, matters of great personal, national, ecological significance. Nothing terrifying per se, but probably part of what is hindering my ability to sleep. That coupled with limited activity - or limited energy expenditure makes sleeping mildly difficult. Plus I've had some things on my mind.

Perhaps dwelling on why I'm not sleeping is limited - Something is going on and figuring it out is helpful if it provides release. I think the trick is to maximize the effectiveness of my awakened hours. If I am effective with how I use my time when awake then I will have no choice but to sleep when sleep comes. In order to sleep, it would help to become sleepy rather than just existing all day long and then hoping to get tired.

I've been trying to balance physical and mental exertions in a hope of finding that space where this entity called the mind and its physical house and interpreter the body live in peace together.

TRUTH: I can no longer live my life as I have been living it - it is proven that this way of life does not work for me. If I wish to find harmony within my self and my environment, I must change my lifestyle... DRASTICALLY!! This is a little scary... in the face of change, we find ourselves staring into the possibility of failure. BUT! What is our other option? If we do nothing, we will surely fail. So the choice is to either do nothing different and achieve the exact same results or make the change - alter our lifestyle drastically and find the harmony we seek.

Maybe THIS is the rejuvenation I'm looking for - a way to renew my faith, trust, love - a way to reclaim my childhood dreams of harmony and happiness. If it is what I hope for, it is most certainly worth it. So I'll go for it!

Love,

M