I suppose there are many of us who wonder why the world should care about our gifts. Not to say we aren't appreciative or that we don't feel blessed to have what we do - but why should other people want to see it, hear about it, or experience it? Isn't there something to be said for humility?
I find myself in an unusual place and this is happening more often these days. I realize more than ever the difference in sharing and giving, pushing and expecting.
I used to love the light - couldn't get enough of it, actually... I was always looking for ways to shine, stand out, impress those around me. I've lost a lot of that edge somehow. Maybe that is a really great thing and yet I can't shake this feeling that something is missing - that I am missing something. It's the same sort of feeling I get when I pull out of the driveway as I leave for vacation. It usually only lasts for a few moments.
Maybe I'm just not ready.
Maybe that doesn't matter.
Maybe it's time to stop making excuses for myself.
Do we have to dance in the light?
Are there others out there who truly want to experience our talents? If so - what gives us the right to deprive them? And yet, if we live in the light in order to please those around us, we may rapidly find ourselves cloaked in shadow.
If the light is a complement to shadow then it follows that we must learn to dance beside the darkness.
Sweetdreams,
M
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