Courage

Take the leap - Your courage will see you through.

I turned over this card when I woke up this morning... I was nervous about something, worried about making a good impression and being seen as potentially lovable. What is strange is that I seem to be perfectly rational and calm when it comes to most things - I can weigh positives and negatives, contemplate the consequences and make educated decisions. But when it comes to matters of the heart, I lose all ability to think logically. My heart opens easily. NO I'm not saying I'm easy - I'm saying I see the good in people, I see potential in every human: potential for a new and beautiful friendship, the potential to experience another human being, the opportunity to learn about the inner depths of my self and to open the parts of myself I keep so guarded.

Do we ever know who may awaken a passion, a fire within us? And once it has indeed been lit, can it simply be put out if we choose to do so? Feelings just don't seem to be so logical... is the courageous thing to do in this situation to fight against the feelings or give in and experience them?

Regardless of whether it is a relationship opportunity, a job opportunity, or ANYTHING else - the leaping can be difficult -there are so many unknowns! If I jump, will I get hurt? Will I regret my decision?

TRUTH: We will NEVER answer these questions if we choose not to jump.

But if we DO jump, does that mean we WILL know the answers? And if we know the answers, does that make the leap of faith any more or less of a reality. Does it change how valuable it was to make the leap to begin with? Answers, it seems, breed more questions, so would we find these answers to be at all satisfying? Perhaps the courage to jump is enough. Perhaps the lesson to be learned is in the motivation, the self-confidence, the trust in life or in love or in the universe or our god of choice.

Perhaps we are to see the beauty in uncertainty, in the mysterious.

Jumping without knowledge of the result is an act of faith... and yet some will call it ignorant. Perhaps, like everything else, courage is a matter of perspective. But there seems to be one consensus - courage and faith go hand in hand. Have faith, be courageous and JUMP! You'll never fly if you're too scared to leave the ground.

"I wanted you to see what real courage is, instead of getting the idea that courage is a man with a gun in his hand. It's when you know you're licked before you begin but you begin anyway and you see it through no matter what. You rarely win, but sometimes you do." ~Harper Lee, To Kill a Mockingbird

I love you.

Michelle