Connection

Connect with someone special - a loved one is a git to treasure.

What is success without someone to share it with? I watched Jerry Maguire earlier, and as usual I get a little choked up somewhere around "you complete me". The thought of being empty without someone else has been bothering me lately. I have been focused on being "enough" for myself, for finding the love that I can give myself and not needing the approval of those outside of me. And yet, If I am the most loving and caring, fun, beautiful person and no one cares about me, do I still make a sound?

Connection, it seems, is part of what makes us so human. Beyond our basic needs for sex, we humans need company - we die in isolation. What's wrong with helping others realize their maximum potential? Is that not what we were put on this earth to do? Tell me - if I maximize my potential and then I die and no one notices, did I live at all? If my life ceases to have meaning once I've died... what on earth was I doing!? Most people, I believe, are more afraid of not living than of death itself.

I've been inside my head a lot recently - i've been sort of isolating myself... and not because I LOVE to be alone, but rather I have not been as interested in simply going out and connecting with new people. But the only way to ensure I will die alone is to choose to be alone in life. If I want love and affection, I must graciously and without hesitation dole love out to those around me. I have to GIVE in order to receive.

So why I am scared to connect? Why do I all of the sudden hesitate, worry, second guess myself? I haven't had this problem before?

I know behind my current block, I long deeply for a connection I can treasure. Beyond the ones I am already blessed with. I saw a commercial this evening where individuals were represented as being green, only there was one yellow amongst the greens. It was clear that this yellow felt a need to be green, knew what it meant to feel completed and yet it could not disguise its yellow nature. Then it met a blue. And Together, they felt green - they were green. Perhaps some of us need an extra hand feeling green... maybe we need to connect with someone blue in order to see that the green was inside of us all along.

Love,

M