Listening

Listen to your wise self - let your inner compass direct the course of your life.

Do we really know ourselves best? Is it possible that someone else may know us better - may see through the lies we tell ourselves and actually SEE us for who we are, for who we may be, for what we have the potential to accomplish, for the love we possess?

Am I to believe that I know what's best for me? Should I trust my feelings, my instincts? Because if I rely solely on my instincts I am no more than an animal. My ability to think on my feelings and make choices is what separates me... but if I ignore my instincts and feelings, if I cannot trust myself to be correct than what can I trust?

You can never truly know another being - is this person being truthful? Do they have my interests at heart at all? CAN THEY? If we are groomed within a certain framework, all of our decisions reflect that structure - and it doesn't have to be a conscious choice. Every person's view of their environment is unique - no two people see the same things in the same fashion. Everyone's advice is tinted by their experience. Sometimes that tint is helpful - may protect your eyes from the glare of the sun or another harmful entity.. and sometimes, it serves only to obscure the images before you- to cloud your vision with falsities or untruths.

Yes, me must listen... and we must also HEAR what is being said - we must discern FOR OURSELVES what is true and what is not. Sometimes, this may mean realizing that one we've trusted is using us. One we have put our faith in puts no faith in us... because they cannot, or will not, or choose not to.

Perhaps we can trust that others will be a mirror for us - that if we may see ourselves through their eyes, we may see new things, new facets. And to put our heart into the way they see us is to set ourselves up to be helpless and at the whim of someone else's world.

Noone lives in our world except us. NO ONE. We may allow people a glimpse, we may even truly desire that two worlds can merge... this may not happen. No one can ever see what you see- we're all wearing differently tinted shades. The perspectives of others outside of us is necessary... it shows us that the way we see something is not how it is, but how we think it is. It shows us that our world is a part of a larger world and in this way we are both incredibly finite and infinite in power.

I listen to myself and hear an argument with others. I struggle to identify what I want, who I am, what I see... and I think I may be spending too much time listening and not enough time acting. perhaps I am too cautious, too pensive, too confused to see my own path. My inner compass says ______. And I hear it. Then I think about what I've heard, cross-reference it against past experience and decide whether or not I am deceiving myself.... This could be the dark passenger speaking, leading me away from the things I want, or it could be the truth.

These days I ask so many questions, Its hard for me to tell. How can I not know myself?

M