Patience.
A virtue...
Love is patient... and kind, yes? Perhaps.
Good things come to those who wait. Maybe.... depending on who you are, what you want and how long you are willing to wait.
I happen to be one of those people who needs to feel forward momentum to feel good about myself. Otherwise I stagnate... which can make me feel useless or worthless. I can FEEEEL it happening. If I pay attention and listen to myself I can feel it happening and I get frustrated with myself. Which can't possibly help anyone... and yet sometimes my fear breaks into my positivity and I feel... lost.
It passes. I feel a little foolish.
Why am I so hard on myself?
Why is being patient so difficult for me?
I have to be patient with myself and learn to sit still.. without feeling like I'm wasting time. Sometimes you have to be patient...
But its not 'sitting around and waiting' for things to come to me!! Is it?
It seems there is a space- not a line, but a space between the two. It's not a big space and I seem to miss it. I can go straight from one side to the other and not see the middle.
Perhaps this is because I cannot sit still well.
Love,
Michelle
Kind of like that feeling when your reflection seems to be moving faster than you are, leaving a small portion of your being behind? Enough to survive, yet your souls light seems to be diminishing like an anorexics body...
ReplyDeleteI too am plagued by stagnation, but don't fret you're not foolish to feel as you do.
This is a space and feeling I know all too well. Almost daily I ffice this same struggle, but I'm lucky. I have your friendship which helps me through the darkest days.