A New Dawn

"The universe puts us in places where we can learn. They are never easy places, but they are right. Wherever you are is the right place, at the right time. Pain sometimes comes. It is part of the proccess of constantly being born...

Then I will tell you a great secret Captain, perhaps the greatest of all time. The molecules of your body are the same molecules that make up this station, and the nebula outside, that is born in the stars themselves. We are starstuff, we are the universe made manifest, trying to figure itself out. As we have both learned, sometimes the universe requires a change of perspective." b5, s2

The first day of the new year comes to a close. Am I different today than I was the days before? Most assuredly.

Today, again I am born. A new day dawns and with it, as with each day, comes an opportunity to do, to be, to learn. I am here now, tomorrow I have the pleasure of being both here and there and I am thrilled and excited at the challenge as it may be as close to teleporting as I ever get. Phase 17 is about to commence.

This is where I am supposed to be. So I might as well stop wishing I was elsewhere, what purpose does that serve accept to taint my experience here and now with discomfort and uncertainty? I have to find in myself the energy, the courage, the drive to move forward. I have to be strong for myself but I am not alone. I sit and ask the universe for guidance. I trust in myself and try to believe in right and good, the power of love and friendship.

If you and I and the universe are made of the same stuff, then I truly am a star, as much a star as any burning orb of gas, flower, bunny, or ocean. We are all one and none simultaneously, the all and nothing, the only source of meaning and seemingly meaningless. We hold hands together and we are infinitely greater and yet we are the same size as we were before. Everything is within me, all life, energy, power - the entirety of the cosmos exists in each cell, each molecule of my being.

Has the universe shifted with my move in locale? or perhaps, the emotional growth is more expansive and impactful... have I altered the heavens by standing up for myself, opening my mind and heart, letting someone in? Do the joining of hearts, the joining of minds create more order in the universe? If so, it makes more sense that people will gravitate towards solitude as a more entropic and favorable scenario... Can souls merge? Mate? Is a child the product of two combining forces and energies, two questions seeking the answers in each other... generating more data to explore?

How can I alter my perspective to see things my eyes don't know how to see or describe? Can I see things if I do not know they exist? Can I see things from your point of view without being you? Can we ever actually have a different perspective on anything? If the world exists to me as I see it then how can it be otherwise... at least to me? To change perspective, to see things from a different side, in a different light, with new fresh eyes is impossible. I can no more remove my perspective from my mind than I can remove the outer layer of my eyes. So what do we do? If the universe demands a change in perspective, might I just need to open my eyes?

I love you,

Michelle